On October 8, 2003 (5 years ago to the date)I delivered our precious, perfect, sweet baby girl. She was born stillborn at 9:15pm, was 5 inches long, and 2.8 ounces. We named her Brenna Selma McGinnis. Her first name is Irish, of course. Her middle name came from my Grandma Jeppesen. Her face had the same features that Connor & Rylie have. **********
We were devastated when we found out that Brenna had died while in the womb, when I was nearly 6 months along. It's hard to put into words how we felt! However, I also remember feeling the love our Heavenly Father more than I had ever felt in my entire life. Mike and I were being taken care of; spiritually, physically, and mentally. I will never forget how we felt and everything that happened. It's amazing the way that things happen. This all occurred on Conference weekend. So, while preparing for delivery and the burial we were able to watch Conference and receive some much-needed spiritual strength. It's awesome how many talks focused on peace, comfort, and love! Then, the choir sang the most BEAUTIFUL arrangement of "A Child's Prayer" that I have ever heard!!!! I know that Heavenly Father was taking care of us and mourning with us as well. Looking back, there are more good things that came out of that experience than bad. I am grateful for how we grew and for the things we learned.
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For Brenna's 5-year-birthday, we're going to release 5 baby pink balloons into the air.
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I know that we will see Brenna again someday! It gives me much motivation, when I ponder what happened with Brenna, to make sure that I get myself and our family to the Celestial Kingdom. I am so grateful for the Plan of Salvation. I am grateful for the Atonement, that provides us the way to return to our Heavenly Father. I know that Heavenly Father loves me so much and I am so grateful for the peace I have received by knowing that.
4 comments:
Thank for sharing such a personal experience. I can't even imagine enduring that kind of loss, but I know you have been a source of great strength and inspiration to your friends who have had to endure the same. Thank you!
I'm so glad you posted this - There is a lady in my ward who just lost her first baby last week. She was 7 months along but the baby, Emma, had a serious heart complication and also died in the womb. It's hard to know what to say or how to offer comfort to them. Just like you, she wants to talk about her and remember her. Thank you for sharing Brenna with us!
Thank you for being a strength to me. What a special daughter you have. I love the tradition with the balloons.
Oh, Laura! You are such a great example to us all. Thinking of you today!
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