We've now been living in Logan, UT for 7 weeks and 3 days! It has gone by very, very fast! I feel like so much has happened in such a short amount of time! Where to begin??? So, we moved in on July 2, 2016. We had a lot of my family there, as well as some neighbors in our new area. We had the moving truck unloaded in 1 hour!!!! I couldn't believe how fast it happened! It didn't stop there though. My family stuck around to put together beds, move heavy furniture, unload some boxes, etc. They were AMAZING and I am so grateful for all of their help! Heaven knows what a job it would've been had we not had their help! By some miracle, I had the house 99% unpacked within the first couple weeks, including the garage!!!! It feels great to have a place for everything and not be living in chaos.
So, we went to our ward, which is the Logan River Trails ward, in the Logan Utah Stake. People seemed friendly, welcoming, and happy to have some new blood in the ward. When we moved in, I made sure to show the Bishop I had a piano, that I played the organ, etc. I wanted to seal my fate with the calling here. I also told him I was one that in past times, anytime I was given a big calling, something would happen to where we moved. In Lansing, Michigan I was called as Primary President, with which we moved a few weeks later. Upon returning to Michigan, I was called as Relief Society President but, the Stake was reorganized & we were put into a different ward so, that calling never happened). So fast forward a few days....the Bishopbric came over to visit with our family. That went well, it was a good visit, and everyone in the Bishopbric is very nice. Fast forward a few days more. Note: we had only been to this new ward 1 1/2 times when we received a call that the Bishop would like to meet with Mike & I. We knew it had to be callings. I had heard that they needed music people in the ward. So, I assumed that would be my calling. Mike and I headed into the office. Bishop Susman sat us down and first addressed Mike. Mike was given the calling as 11 year old Scout leader, to which Mike accepted. He was excited about this calling. He was kind of black listed in our old ward and was never given a chance to try. This was exactly what he needed. Then, Bishop looked at me and said, "Are you moving yet?" I laughed and thought he was just messing around. However, it was a precursor into my new calling. He then said, "We would like to call you as the Relief Society President." I thought he was joking and laughed about it. It took a few minutes of going back and forth for me to realize he was completely serious. Once I caught onto the fact that he was serious, I automatically put my face in my hands and I instantly started to cry, sob, and ugly-cry. I then followed that up with, "Oh my hell!" Yes, I swore at the Bishop to which he replied, "That's ok. It's in the scriptures." I laughed slightly but, continued to cry and cry and cry. Mike though I was laughing because the sound of cry I had going but, when I took my face out of my hands, he realized I was crying. Then, Mike started to laugh even harder. I couldn't answer the Bishop. I just kept crying and crying. This continued on for another few hours at least. Before we left his office, I squeaked out a yes. I warned him that in all seriousness I am completely crazy, I get overwhelmed by the smallest of things, and get extremely stressed out. He said he knew and it would be ok. I later found out he had called my previous Bishop and he had told Bishop Susman that he has felt for some time I have been flying under the radar and have been underutilized. Where do these people come up with this stuff? He then said that he would like me to pick my counselors and secretary by Sunday morning. Mind you, the day he called me was a Thursday night. So, I only had a couple days to choose. Not only that, I know absolutely NO ONE in my new ward, except for a friend of mine. How am I supposed to choose someone? This was scary to me. I have no faith in myself on following the Spirit or its promptings. I just feel like I'm incapable of recognizing that Holy Ghost or the answers Heavenly Father sends me. The Bishop provided me with a list of sisters to choose from. When I called my Dad that night, he was STUNNED. Basically speechless. He later said it wasn't because of the idea of me being R.S. President but, that it had happened so soon after we had moved in. The next day we were heading to Bear Lake for the weekend so, I somehow needed to be choosing during our time at Bear Lake. I really wanted to go to the temple about it but, there wasn't any time. So, I did praying, pondering, etc. and thought I had come up with who I wanted. I then called the Bishop and he said none of those ladies were right or couldn't do the calling. I then asked him to revamp the list for who I really could choose from. I went from there. I remember feeling like I really needed to make sure I had women of different ages in my presidency. So, after much thinking, praying, and speaking with the Bishop, I had another list of sisters and Bishop said, "Now that's a solid presidency." I submitted the names for confirmation from the Bishopbric. I then started to panic because he wanted to put us in that Sunday. I was freaking out and wanted another week to process and to mentally & spiritually prepare myself. A tender mercy happened. The Bishop let me know that they were going to wait 2 weeks to sustain us because of some other curcumstances. I was SO GRATEFUL I had another week to wrap my brain around this calling. This really has been a humbling experience for myself. There has been some good come from this already. The biggest thing is Mike's attitude and willingness to support me. In St. George, this was something I didn't have from him and was much of the reason I had to be released from YW's. However, he's completely turned a new leaf. He's extremely supportive, doesn't complain or question me, and is so positive. I thought it would only last a small while but, he continues to amaze me. If I didn't have his full support, this calling would be impossible. Even with all the meetings I go to (sometimes 3 times a week) he is fully supportive! I've come to realize many things from this and why I think I was put in this calling:
1: To learn how to recognize the Spirit and God's hand in all things.
2: To learn to understand and have compassion for people different from me.
3: To gain a stronger testimony of the gospel and the purpose of Relief Society.
4: To learn how to delegate and learn where my boundaries are.
5: To teach me how to control my tendencies to be overwhelmed and stressed out. I really feel this will help me to find a balance in all things.
6: To re-learn the importance of prayer and scripture study.
7: To get me out of my comfort zone and to grow. Once upon a time, I would have considered myself the leadership type. Once I came home from my mission though, I lost that feeling and really felt like I did NOT belong in leadership and would be just a good person to support someone else. I still feel like I have no business being in this position.
8: To help me to grow up a bit. It's no lie that I am pretty immature still. Maybe not by looks but, definitely personality-wise. Yes, I can still be goofy and have fun but, I need to dial it back a bit too.
I know this list will continue to grow but, this is where I'm at so far. Things are good with the calling. Sometime I enjoy it and sometimes I want to run for the hills. Sometimes I feel like I"m getting the hang of it and then BOOM, I have no clue what I'm doing. You should see me in Presidency Meetings. Luckily I have an AMAZING presidency! I'm not just saying that!!! They are extremely helpful and are willing to do whatever!!!!! I feel like I've given them so much to do, that they have left me with nothing at times.
Our ward is quite needy. There are so many tough cases and families that are severely struggling. That alone overwhelms me. I just feel like I don't have enough time and energy to get to every single person. I'm just trying to take it day by day and do my best. There's so much work to be done here. If I think too much about it, I really get down and feel sick inside. I feel like I have a huge weight on my shoulders and have enormous responsibility here. The Bishop said next to his calling, mine was the next hardest and most important calling in the ward. Well gosh, if that didn't made me want to poop my pants! All I do know is I do have a testimony of the gospel. I know I love my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I know that they love me. If I just hold to the things I know and love, then the rest should fall into place.










