Ventings of Me, Myself, and I!

So, I started out the week totally pumped about the week!!!!!  I had fun things planned and was just feeling excited!  Monday was a great Labor Day!  We spent time as a family and LOVED IT!!!!!  Then, Tuesday hit and that's where it TANKED!  I got hit with the stomach bug BIG time!!!!!  I'll spare the details but, 5 days later and I think I have conquered that beast!!!!

On top of that, my back and leg (on the left side) have been in so much PAIN!!!  Unbearable pain!  Pain that when I play the organ in church, I wince each time I have to move pedals.  Or pain so bad that I'm up every 2 hours crying!  Just horrible pain!  I feel bad because my kids have seen me in bed or lying down more than they've seen me up and moving around.  They say, "Mommy, is your back hurting AGAIN?!?!?!", just so annoyed!  On top of that, poor Mike has had to deal with a whiny wife and has had to deal with me complaining of the pain.  In fact, so sick of hearing me complain about it that he told me to finally call the Dr., which is always a last resort for him.  Not to mention, I've been super irritable from the pain.  So, I called my Dr.  He had had me start physical therapy on my back and wanted to see if that would work before we did anything else.  Unfortunately, the pain has intensified and isn't improving.  So, he scheduled me for an MRI and it was performed that day.  I'm grateful to have the MRI done because I'm to the point where I don't care what they have to do anymore.  Just give me some relief!!!!!  So, Monday I should know the results from the test.  The MRI machine was a party!  Ha ha!  I can see why people who are claustrophobic can't do the MRI.  It's a tight space and I thought "the girls" might make me stuck in the machine.  However, it wasn't horrible at all.  I just found myself singing songs and making up little games in my head to make the time pass.

I was supposed to go to Vegas on Thursday to meet up with a long, lost friend I haven't seen in a few years. I was looking forward to this day for a long time.  Mike had moved court dates so that he could stay home with the kids and I could go to Vegas without the kiddo's. He also had new tires put on his car, got the oil changed, cleaned out his car so I could take his car down there.  I let my friend know I wasn't feeling well on Wednesday night.  She said she hoped I would get better but, she can't get sick.  So, the next morning I honestly felt 98% better.  I had more energy and was so pumped to go.  Well, my friend said she couldn't chance it and didn't want to get sick.  I was SO disappointed!!!!!  While I can understand her not wanting to get sick I still felt bad and rejected, if that makes sense.  I felt like I had this horrible disease!!!!  Then, something else happened later that day with someone that made me feel like I had a horrible disease and to stay away but, not once did they say, "Are you OK?", "What can I help with?", or "I'm sorry".  I know, I'm being dramatic, and a baby, and I'm mostly venting all this out because I know only a small handful reads this but, I just like to know that even though I have a yucky sickness and I wouldn't want them to have it EVER.....that they still care, want to be there for me, and/or help.  I will say that my in-laws were AMAZING!!!!!!  They came and took the kids Wednesday morning for me for 3 1/2 hours so that I could get some sleep because I had been up all night, the previous night, throwing up and in pain.  They even brought me soup and made my family dinner.  No questions asked, just cared.  It doesn't take much to make me feel loved.  Just a simple, "How are you feeling?" is all I need.

I was supposed to get a makeover on my hair done but, it's all good.  Next Saturday it will happen and I CANNOT WAIT!!!

It's just been a long week!  I hate how I feel mentally and physically.  I'm counting on this week to be better and I aim to make it better!  I'm hoping church with give me some oomf to my load and perk me up!  Heck, I even feel unmotivated to go to church tomorrow.  OK, I'm wayyyy too depressing.  I just had to get some of my feelings out.  So, here's to a new week (as I raise my glass of milk) and being perky and enjoyable!!!!!