Mike was out of town this week so, one of the night's I had to work, Mike's sister (Shannon) came over to watch the kids. Shannon just got a new puppy and the kids adore her!!!! They love playing with her and getting her to chase them around!
My kids love animals SO MUCH! I wish we could get them a pet dog or cat but, where we live it's not allowed. Plus, our current house is just too small. We can't have an indoor pet because I'm allergic to animals, I don't care if it's a poodle or what but, I still have a reaction to them. Plus, I want a dog or cat that is an outdoor pet. Eventually I hope we can get them one but, for now, we'll just borrow other people's pets.
We have been taking the kids swimming a lot, since school is starting up again soon. They have been able to go swimming quite a bit and they love it! Our swim pass expires soon and we'll miss it but, we sure had fun with it!!!!
Its been a rough, rough week! It all started last Saturday and I was ready for it to be over on Monday! First, we found out Mike's windshield is bad enough that it had to be replaced to pass inspection. Then, our vacuum broke and our dryer broke within minutes of each other. Then, I'm supposed to be having surgery on Wednesday. Some BIG TIME added stress and details came up and it was very much up in the air as to whether or not I would be having the surgery. Add that to some major issues we're having otherwise and my anxiety levels are extra high this week! On a plus side, my Mother-in-Law found a fabulous vacuum at the D.I. The funny thing is it's the same vacuum we had before that died. Mike was able to fix the dryer for $30, thank heavens. I am SO LUCKY that I have a husband who can fix ANYTHING and I mean ANYTHING!!!!! So, at least those 2 stresses are gone.
On Sunday I bore my testimony about the above quote/picture. For a long time I've really struggled about my ability to receive answers to prayers, feel God's love, and question myself. I've never once questioned the gospel or what I believe in though. It's mostly the fact that I am sinking, not even treading water, with life right now and its been that way for some time. I've desperately wanted to feel some sort of peace, comfort, and guidance. On Sunday, as I was playing the organ prelude for Sacrament Meeting, this feeling of love came over me. It wasn't a huge, overwhelming feeling. It was just a sweet, simple feeling. A feeling that Heavenly Father DOES love me, he DOES know me and he DOES know the struggle I am going through. Yes, it's tough stuff and will it be going away soon? No, it won't. The one thing I DO KNOW for sure is that my Heavenly Father LOVES ME and wants me to succeed. Do I want my trails to be gone or lightened? Heavens yes but, for now, this is enough.
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