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Sometimes, a lot lately, I feel like I have no one I can turn to that genuinely cares about me! I have friends I run with, friends I hang with at church but, I struggle with the friend's I feel I can talk to and open up to, that CARE! Tonight I have felt the loneliest I have felt in a long time. As I tried getting in touch with the ones I could maybe call, they were all busy. Then, it got me to thinking. I think that the ones I feel are my close friend's down here really only will do something with me if they aren't busy doing other things with other people and/or they only say yes to hanging out with me out of pity or duty to me. I just feel very honestly that none of these girl's call me because they just don't see me as "that friend". Which, makes me feel dumb. Why do I have to be the one to put together, or invite, or suggest all the time. Probably because they don't want to do stuff with me unless I push it. I'm a pushy person. I tend to go full throttle for things I want or feel is important. When someone doesn't feel the same way, then I'm sad and hurt through no fault but of my own. I get it, right now I'm in the season of life where I have a family and trust me, that is my focus and it brings me joy and satisfaction. It's what I've dreamed of doing my whole life. However, on days like to today and yesterday, I wish some genie could come make my sadness, loneliness, and overwhelming life become one of contentment, joy, and peace. Or that someone I love and trust felt the need and desire to check on me. Let me know they care. I just feel alone. This too shall pass........right?
2 comments:
I often feel this exact same way. If we lived closer I would def. hang out and check up on you :) it's there loss I promise!!!
Hey! I feel this way too!! It's like it comes in spurts right? Some days you are perfectly content with the friend situation mostly because you are just too busy to care, but on days you have time to think about it, you feel lonely and sad. Laura, just remember that no matter what, you really do have people that love you! Truly! It's just that we live so far away from each other! I have a hard time believing that you don't have a gazillion friends. You are such a fun amazing caring hilarious peppy wild person! People should be tripping over themselves to be your friend!
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